Sunday 19 January 2014
Speaking of gaming, I believe i need to just voice out my own opinion in the game i play often : League of Legends. I play LoL alot, i am in a competitive team, etcetc all that good stuff. But from time to time i still get stressed when playing cuz of our mindsets. Thats fine, cuz when im stressed when in-game I tend to keep quiet and not talk. Oh and if you're wondering why you would be stressed playing a game, then its simple. In LoL,there are people that will make you feel disturbed basically. LoL is a teamwork game, so 'toxic' players can make you feel indignant or .. Sore basically. Lets say something happens, and it clearly IS NOT YOUR FAULT IT HAPPENED. Small amount of players in the community would say something like, 'its fine, lets try harder' next time, or something encouraging. But of course , in LoL community you see stuff like 'you are a noob' or 'you suck' etc. Of course since it isint your fault, you would defend yourself. We get all defensive and our teammates take that as us being offensive and looking for an argument. No doubt an argument will start. Of course you are just DEFENSIVE at your part, and its a misunderstanding that will spark that argument. Anyway , im fine when im stressed. But when im HYPER stressed i would tend to think that everything is my fault, BUT i would be defensive either way. Although it isint my fault, i would blame myself and start being toxic towards people (be it whether they start being toxic towards me or not). But yea that only happens when im HYPER-STRESSED. I just left a game just now, cuz one of my team mates from public queue started to be sarcastic. I was the tank,and of cuz as a tank you die often for your team. And he was critisizing my score. He did everything he could to make me feel out of place. He said something like 'lets see how far you and your friends go without me in fight.' As a tank,im the most important one in the game. To prove how important my role is as compared to him,i left the game. My friends told me they lost immediately after i left (there you have it). Until this part of typing this post, i am feeling so much better. I guess all i need is cool time. I really do not feel like playing LoL for awhile after this situation. There is no situation where i will leave my friends in a game when my role is the most important, and make them lose all because of one person. Yes i did apologized to them and told them i was stressed as hell , and im sure they understand. Anyway, now that im feeling better,i feel like doing something else (other than squeezing my NaSuBi stress ball and blogging) to relive stress. Sometimes i think to myself. Is all this stress depriving me from performing better? Or is it my individual skills? I do not know. I guess i have to do some self-searching then. So, see you guys next time i guess?
