Ok the only reason i put this pic up here is cuz all the other players in my team are all plats and diamonds. (2 plats and 2 diamonds iinm)

So im the only gold. Those who didnt know, a couple years ago i was a bronzie cuz i was really toxic and im just really bad at everything(still kinda toxic now but not cancerous). So i climbed my way up to gold in a couple years time,meaning to say i've improved,right? So thats a good thing.

Here's what: THESE people made me feel like,im the complete garbage of the universe. Everytime i try to remind myself : 'i came up from bronze,im not as bad as everyone else thinks i am' and these people will be there to say stuff to pull me down. For example , quote unquote "Im diamond and you're just garbage". 

Normally i have all chat turned off so my opponents wont talk shit to me. But recently i realized my own teammates are more of a threat than my opponents.

I know i can mute them. But its just that i like to see what they type so i can 'talk back' to them. I didnt for this game. I was devastated. I know its a game. 

I get that its a game

But its not the whole 'winning and losing' aspects of it making me feel so trashy. Its the whole 'im better than you because im higher ranked' thing. Its as good as saying 'i earn more money than you because im a CEO and you're just a dishwasher'. 

So i didnt perform. I did try. Like i said i would normally talk back but i didnt this time. I was thinking to myself: "what kind of players are these? How can they get so high up with such attitude?". 

I did mention earlier that i was really toxic back in bronze and these players made me feel really sentimental cuz its just like seeing 4 other versions of me in the past running around Summoner's Rift.

Im not blogging about this to soil their name,neither am i doing this to make me seem like a victim. Im doing this cuz it makes me feel better about things. Its just a me kinda thing. (cuz none of my friends likes listening to my complaining and stuff,naturally)

I know i did diss some players in the past,back in silver. I would say stuff like "im silver,shut up."

What a dick. Maybe this is karma,idk? But ive seen this kinda thing most of the time when playing league. I dont know about playing this game now,its just too much for me.

Until next time.