^Pls dont ask me why i always throw in anime pic,i just love em'.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE. 

I do wish everyone a smooth sailing 2016, a new start to all your journeys! 

I wont be going out to celebrate 2016 with my friends this year. Well many happened, so im still emotionally pegged to everything.
;~;

That aside,  I do not have any new year's resolution tbh.

I mean im bad at committing to things so yknow lets not start on New Year resolutions ...

BUT

I do have a wish! I wish that i would be more emotionally stable to handle society and the lemons life throw at me,and to be able to maintain a healthy relationship with myself! I always treat myself as trash idk its just how i grew up :')

I also wish that this blog will get more audience! So i can share nonsense with others who indulge in nonsense like me. 
(sincerely hope my bad drawings wont be anymore of an eyesore tbh)

Lastly before I leave,i want to thank my best friend (lets just call him RT) for sticking with me thru 2015's harshest moments,and our friendship is drawing into it's 7th year soon.

YOU DA REAL MVP 

That's it for now!
Once again,wishing you all a Happy New Year and blessings to all!
~Karamel

^Yes i drew this so credits to me :v

I was seemingly bored AS USUAL,so I decided to draw Aisaka Taiga (逢坂 大河) from ToraDora!
I hope i didn't do that badly, so pls no hate :x

For those who dont know/haven't watched ToraDora, its this romance/comedy anime that plays with your feelings multiple times within a couple of episodes.
                                                                         
So if you like romance,you like comedy,but at the same time you also want to cry buckets,go watch Toradora!!! 

That's for now. Until next time xD

Hello my dear readers. It's been awhile. 
I realized all my life I've been dedicated to playing this game,as you guys know, called league of legends. LoL in short.

I've started playing since beta, where the champs look pretty bad.
Don't ask me why I chose to play a game that looks bad,cuz back then the only other good games to get hooked on are runescape, Sudden Attack,and good ol' Restaurant City.


^Yes that was how LoL looked like back then.

Today, I'm not going to harp on me losing games, having really bad teammates or just me underperforming as a whole. Im going to share with you how much things have changed ever since beta (2011 or something i cant remember) till now.

1. Game Visual as a whole
LoL underwent many in game visual changes,from champion skin textures to map re-renders,things certainly look brand new. Looking at how the Summoner's Rift currently is, it sure is a whole lot fresher compared to the old one.
I personally prefer the old summoner's rift cuz I've been playing on that map for like 3 years+ so yknow. 

Oh yes,the victory screens as well. Even teemo's grandfather has a new look overhaul now.
(PS;yknow = you know,im just lazy x.x)


2. Gaming Community
LoL changed more so after the rise of new pro players such as Lustboy. Many LoL players worship these players like gods,and therefore also aspired to become one of them. 
LoL do have bad changes overall albeit the rise of these pro players. As such is a toxic community. I've been there. I was really toxic because I felt like i was some sort of a god for watching TSM Dyrus (ily tsirdiesalot) stream. I would always call my teammates 'noobs' and 'trash' because I felt like im the best. 
(which is totally not true,i was Bronze III back then ;~;)
I feel its ok to love a pro player and wanting to become them,but the truth is we're not them,and making it seem like we are by bringing down others definitely wont help.
^Dyrus ma man (droolz)

3. Competitiveness 
This brings me to my next point. More and more pro-players are on the rise as the years go by. Everyone wants to be someone. But someone wants to be anyone. Basically everyone wants to become the Doublelift of their bracket. The game becomes less fun and more competitive,everyone forgot that this is all a game. Including me,i do forget that its a game as well. There were times where i would get worked up over a camp at top(yes im playing top now) or when i dont get the desired outcome of the game i expected. Back then when people camp top on me,either outcome (me getting out alive,or not at all) would result in only one common thing: fun and laughter. I would type stuff in all chat such as "man you must really love top" and everyone would just have a good laugh. 
Ending a game back then, whether it was a victory or defeat,would bring us friendship. We would add everyone back then and compliment them on how good they are despite some big misplays or mistakes. Now its different. Win or lose,the BM (bad mouthing) comes into play. I dont bm my opponents now however,im struggling more trying to maintain my temper against my own teammates (they are the ones who usually talk crap to me cuz i muted all chat lmao)

Thats about it for now. Idk how long I'll be playing this game. Maybe till my friends stop. Highly likely they will, but its fine. I believe all good things will come to an end some day. 

GG~!

Ok the only reason i put this pic up here is cuz all the other players in my team are all plats and diamonds. (2 plats and 2 diamonds iinm)

So im the only gold. Those who didnt know, a couple years ago i was a bronzie cuz i was really toxic and im just really bad at everything(still kinda toxic now but not cancerous). So i climbed my way up to gold in a couple years time,meaning to say i've improved,right? So thats a good thing.

Here's what: THESE people made me feel like,im the complete garbage of the universe. Everytime i try to remind myself : 'i came up from bronze,im not as bad as everyone else thinks i am' and these people will be there to say stuff to pull me down. For example , quote unquote "Im diamond and you're just garbage". 

Normally i have all chat turned off so my opponents wont talk shit to me. But recently i realized my own teammates are more of a threat than my opponents.

I know i can mute them. But its just that i like to see what they type so i can 'talk back' to them. I didnt for this game. I was devastated. I know its a game. 

I get that its a game

But its not the whole 'winning and losing' aspects of it making me feel so trashy. Its the whole 'im better than you because im higher ranked' thing. Its as good as saying 'i earn more money than you because im a CEO and you're just a dishwasher'. 

So i didnt perform. I did try. Like i said i would normally talk back but i didnt this time. I was thinking to myself: "what kind of players are these? How can they get so high up with such attitude?". 

I did mention earlier that i was really toxic back in bronze and these players made me feel really sentimental cuz its just like seeing 4 other versions of me in the past running around Summoner's Rift.

Im not blogging about this to soil their name,neither am i doing this to make me seem like a victim. Im doing this cuz it makes me feel better about things. Its just a me kinda thing. (cuz none of my friends likes listening to my complaining and stuff,naturally)

I know i did diss some players in the past,back in silver. I would say stuff like "im silver,shut up."

What a dick. Maybe this is karma,idk? But ive seen this kinda thing most of the time when playing league. I dont know about playing this game now,its just too much for me.

Until next time.